親愛的爸爸 My Dad

每次看到爸爸的一對長耳朵,總會笑説他一定很長命,果然,蒙神賜福, 他享夀九十一歲。他和部分都市人一樣有三高(血壓、糖尿及膽固醇),除此之外,身體尚算健康,而且頭腦也精明!
表面上,爸爸看似很嚴肅,不苟言笑,但只要懂得逗他和哄他,打破之間的隔膜,他也很容易親近。 其實他也有健談的一面,如果是他喜歡的話題,或遇着好的傾談對象,他便會展現風趣幽默,滔滔不絕的本領。
個人很欣賞父親的孝心,及對上帝的忠心。印象最深刻一次是當祖母在汕頭過身,父母帶著大哥、我和我丈夫回鄉奔喪。當其他人跪拜祖母遺體之際,爸爸和我們則站立默哀,原來他事先巳和親戚們溝通,讓他們明白他作為基督徒的立場和原則,並得到他們的諒解和尊重。那天父親的行為給在場所有親戚和朋友作了美好的見證。
近幾年,爸爸身體已大不如前。 大約一年前,爸爸提到視力很模糊,讀聖經很吃力, 於是我便每天錄“靈命日糧”給他聽,讓他能繼續靈修親近神,在主裏重新得力!試過有幾次我忘記了錄,他便立刻提醒我,實在很欽佩爸爸這種渴慕追求神話語的心。
約兩個月前,有一位朋友提醒我要把握機會向父親表達對他的欣賞及說些感激的説話。 我說:「不太自然,因爲平時我很少用感性的說話與爸爸溝通。」但其實經朋友提點,心裡確實也想找機會說,但卻是不知如何啟齒!
在父親離世前三天,同一位朋友得知爸爸身體已經很虛弱,她又問我有沒有和爸爸一起祈禱,讓神賜他有平安的心。 我說:「不習慣,而且很久沒有在家人面前帶禱告,但私底下則常有為爸爸祈禱。」總之每次都為自己找藉口!
爸爸,那天見著你在醫院的血壓和心跳不斷下降,意識到天父接你回天家的日子到了,二哥示意我們有甚麼話便趕快說,我內心還在掙扎猶豫,但聖靈卻在心裏催逼,那一刻,我終於按捺不住,在禱告中揚聲的告訴你女兒對你的感激。 我懊悔及自責沒有早些在你還有精神時,把握機會向你表達,至少那時你還可以細細回味女兒對你的肯定及感恩。 雖然見著你的氣息越來越微弱,但我相信你仍然能聽見及感受到,希望你感到欣慰!
爸爸,你仿似在睡夢中逝世,很安詳。感恩你已完全脫離了世上的勞苦,安息主懷抱裏。此刻,你已在天家與媽媽和大哥重聚,有一天,我也會與你們重聚,感謝神的恩典,應許我們有永恆的生命!
次女慕儀
Every time I saw my dad’s long ears, I would laugh and say that he was going to have a long life. Sure enough, God blessed him with 91 years to live. Considering that he had the “3 highs” (blood pressure, diabetes and cholesterol), his body and mind were relatively healthy and sharp like the average person.
On the surface, my dad seemed to have a very serious demeanour, but once you broke through that gap, and knew how to coax him, he could be very easy to get close to. In fact, as long as he found a topic that he liked or met a person that he could communicate well with, he would become very talkative and showed his bright and humorous side.
I admired how my dad honoured his parents and his loyalty to God. The most impressive moment was when my grandmother passed away in Shantou and my parents brought my eldest brother, me and my husband along to attend the funeral. While others knelt to pay respect to my grandmother, we stood and paid tribute silently instead. My dad had explained to his relatives to gain their understanding ahead of time about his position and principles as a Christian. My dad’s actions that day gave a beautiful testimony to all of the relatives and friends present.
In recent years, his health began to deteriorate. About 1 year ago, his eyesight was getting poorer and he was having difficulty reading the Bible, so I started to record ‘Our Daily Bread’ for him so that he could listen to God’s word daily and gained strength in his walk with God. There were a few times when I had forgotten to record, he would immediately remind me. Seeing that made me really admire his desire to pursue God’s Word.
About 2 months ago, a friend reminded me to seize the opportunity to express my appreciation and gratitude to my dad, but I told her that we didn’t usually communicate that way and it would be unnatural for me to bring it up. However, after she mentioned this, it was constantly on my mind and I knew that I needed to find a time to tell him, but I just couldn’t find the right words and right moment!
3 days before my dad passed away, the same friend knew that he was getting very weak and she asked me if I had prayed with him. I replied that I was not used to openly praying with my dad, but that I often pray for him in private. I found myself making excuses every time!
Dad, when I saw you in the hospital that day with your blood pressure and heartbeat dropping, I knew that the time was coming and God was going to take you to Heaven soon. Brother urged us to say our final words to you quickly. I was still hesitating at that moment, but I felt the Holy Spirit working in my heart and I found the courage to tell you through prayer how grateful I am to you. Although I regret and blame myself for using so many excuses and not taking the chance to tell you earlier, I believe that while your breath was getting weaker at that moment, you could still hear and feel my affirmation and gratitude for you.
Dad, you seemed to have passed away peacefully in your sleep. I am glad you are freed from the toil of the world and are now resting in the arms of the Lord. At this moment, you are in Heaven with my mom and my eldest brother and one day, thanks to the grace of God and His promise of eternal life, we will be reunited!
Anita